Isnt it Ironic

I went on my first date in years…with someone I havent seen in years, a high school friend. Id see him in the halls and think he is cute and hope he would talk to me but it never happened. Why? I didnt know why then but I do now. He’s a taurus. That’s why. The early May taurus’s dont move with speed…at all. So now it doesnt surprise me now that he didnt call me for days even though we hadnt finished our conversation…or set a day to “meet”

So I called him. And doing so really made me realize I know this kind of guy a little bit too well. He reminds me of John. He talked to me as if he called me…asked me when I want to meet. *blink blink* I didnt even have to bring it up.

So I check out the place he mentioned going to online to find it was a country/old rock type of bar, that smelled like throw up and had peanuts on the floor. No. Ugh. First sign this isnt going good. But I need to go out and get to dating so I shoot back with three other places…and we agree to meet at one of them. He called me early the day of to confirm…which shocked me. Then he called me from his job and we talked for an hour or so about different things. He told me that he asked a friend from school about me.

so the day comes…he was 20 minutes late. He did not look excited to see me…. no sweet reunion. But he DID looked nervous and shy. I wanted to stay at the place we were at but he wanted to leave..to expensive I guess. Second sign of cheapness. We leave and start walking and suddenly he looks across the street at a bar and I see a debate going on in his head…he decides to take me to “his” spot. This is a place where everyone knows him and he has history. Its a regular bar with a family attitude but stippers are there on certian nights. I liked it but what I didnt like is the way he was looking at one of the bartenders. He clearly had feelings for her but its also clear they are not reciprocated…until at least I showed up…then i saw a little jealousy in her eyes. wtf she has a boyfriend…anyway…I think he picked up on it and he started to show signs of wanting to know me…but I was so turned off I didnt totally reciprocate. Some gay guys came right up to us (yes Im the gay magnet) and started talking to me…he looked at him and then me and asked if we were married and i took advantage of the situation and said yes before he could answer no…lol. that was funny. i checked his face and winked…he played along. Then we went outside for a smoke and the owners wife came up to us cause she knows him and asked if we were dating and how sweet that we went to school together…lol. Then the bill comes. I take out money and put 30 down. he takes 20 and gives me 10 back. ewwwww. no class. guess i know now its not a date-date.

He got drunk but I stopped drinking. Suddenly we left and before I knew it we were infront of his place and he offered to have me over. Yeah. I know why. But, Im curious cause a guys place says a lot about him, so I said yes. We get to his door and I see his x’s name on the door, which he pointed out stupidly. My mind shoots back to the night when he told me its been two years since his breakup with his x. I walk in and it look grandmotherly. Really jewish. lol. No style, just a guys basic pad. I sit down and I see that its 2:30. Oh shit. Im a mom, I have a babysitter running a tab, I gotta go. He tries to put his hands on my waist but Im not having it…i dont know what i did but somehow i got out of it. He probably chickened out. thats sounds more right. He was going to kiss me but I didnt want to…he didnt even walk me to get a cab or say, call me when you get home so i know you got there okay.

I cried quietly in the cab home. Tears just streaming down but no sound. I feel so lost. This guy shouldnt get to me like he does but my x has made me bitter. Fuck this guy…No call the next day or the day after. I called him days later after hanging with the girls all drunk and against their advice but he wasnt there and didnt pick up his cell…..If he had I would of given him a piece of my mind.