OMFG

July 3, 2008

Im on a dating site and yesterday this cop starts talking to me…my first impression is he’s hot! omg hot. so my type but wait………he’s too fast. he responds fast…talks fast, wants to meet fast…likes me fast….he ruined it by talking sexual too fast, giving me super, heavy, over the top flirting. I dont mind sex talk, I just have to know you have a brain first for me to want to get sexy. I played along, well, cause Im a flirt too but I shouldnt of and my friend who i trust saw all the red flags b4 me. “He was going to take me out, pay for my babysitter, pick me up, drop me off (which is way out of his way and lots of tolls)” I defended to my friend. But no she wasnt having it, all the signs are wrong. “He has a kid so he knows what its like. I guess. I dont know.” I defended again. But my girl wasnt having it. NO! I wrote him this morning to tell him I wanted to go slow, that I wanted to be friends first and he got mad at me. !!!! Then he verbally attacked me to the point where were on the phone fighting and I felt like I was talking to my x. He got nastier and nastier as we talked and then he hung up on me and emailed me and told me to loose his number. Dont worry, I will, but dayum. I couldnt believe it. I still cant as I type this. I feel more like a cop than him. Im not going to meet some stranger, anywhere just because he’s a cop. Why should I feel immediatley safe? He’s like a baby who doesnt get his way so he screams and cries until he gets it. I asked him would he like it if some stranger came and picked up his daughter (who is 12 btw) and take her in his car somewhere she doesnt know???) (he wanted to take me to queens btw eeewwwww) His answer? You’re a grown woman. WTF?! Yeah, and a smart one. Trust is EARNED not demanded.

Its too bad. I had the hots for him big time. But he is TOTALLY damaged just like my x. exactly. *shivers* If he had come from love and given me the time to trust him like a gentleman SHOULD then he would of had me…….sweet like cherry pie