Im soooo stupid

I dont know what Im doing. or why Im thinking so much about you. Im going crazy. I need to stop. I barely know you. Meanwhile my x stalks my page. I finally took all the personality out and Im never logging in there again. I need to focus on what I really want. Will the universe to send it to me. cause this is not it

10 minute post

I know it turns you on that I stand my ground. I know, like me, you cant stop thinking about me. I wanna just pick up the phone and text you but I wont. I want you to come to me and Im not budging till you do. Meanwhile Im frustrated cause this game is stopping us from doing what we really want. Which is to meet, confirm our attraction and then do what we’ve both been thinking about for a month. Im burning up. My dreams are coming back. My charm is gearing up. Im like the under the cherry moon sountrack. sexy, addictive…moving….dramatic. I die in your arms under the cherry moon. I want you. Am I crazy? That last picture did it for me. I havent told you how much. But it has. Look at me….here….pining for you. Ugghhh!

Soundtrack of me

I cant disguise the pounding of my heart
It beats so strong
Its in your eyes what can I say
They turn me on

I dont care where we go
I dont care what we do
I dont care pretty baby
Just take me with u

Come on and touch the place in me
Thats calling out your name
We want each other oh so much
Why must we play this game?

Dont care where we go
I dont care what we do
I dont care pretty baby
Just take me with u

I dont care if we spend the night at your mansion
I dont care if we spend the night on the town
All I want is 2 spend the night together
All I want is 2 spend the night in your arms

To be around u is so-oh right
Youre sheer perfection (thank u)
Drive me crazy, drive me all night
Just dont break up the connection

I dont care where we go
I dont care what we do
I dont care pretty baby
Just take me with u

I dont care where we go
I dont care what we do
I dont care pretty baby
Just take me with u

Just take me with u
Oh wont u take me with u
Honey take me with u

I want what I want. Is that too much to ask?

I cant stop thinking about him. I thought about letting him see this spot but Im deciding against it. I need a private spot, alone….away from the rest of the world. I like that nobody comments. People are always giving their two cents when it isnt needed. Im tired of people’s words. I want action.

Why did he send me a picture of himself today. He looks so good. Could I be willing to share him with his internet freaks? He swears he’s faithful when committed. But he wants to be free to look. Looking is nice. Its touching Im worried about. I feel replaceable. And doesnt everyone want to feel irreplaceable.

I dont know permacy. Is that the word? oh who cares. I dont know it. 4 years is as far as I can get. Ive never had a guy like this one. My gut tells me it wont go far.

Or does it?