I want what I want. Is that too much to ask?

I cant stop thinking about him. I thought about letting him see this spot but Im deciding against it. I need a private spot, alone….away from the rest of the world. I like that nobody comments. People are always giving their two cents when it isnt needed. Im tired of people’s words. I want action.

Why did he send me a picture of himself today. He looks so good. Could I be willing to share him with his internet freaks? He swears he’s faithful when committed. But he wants to be free to look. Looking is nice. Its touching Im worried about. I feel replaceable. And doesnt everyone want to feel irreplaceable.

I dont know permacy. Is that the word? oh who cares. I dont know it. 4 years is as far as I can get. Ive never had a guy like this one. My gut tells me it wont go far.

Or does it?