Like a moth to the flame

Yesterday was a bad day. I walked in the door at 8:00 pm with tears streaming down my face. A moment later there is a knock at the door and it is my neighbor with a ups package of mine. I looked at it puzzled because I hadnt ordered anything. At first I though it was my x trying to school me with some self help book he hasnt even read yet but it wasnt…it was from my dear friend Nonny from France. She sent me two books, The Mastery of Love and The Four Agreements.

I was instantly happy. To have something to read that is of spiritual nature, come at a time like this couldnt of been any better-I needed help and I was getting it. I started with The Mastery of Love and it really put my thoughts and heart back in place. It helped me to decided with certianty that moving on is best …and more importantly I understand why I should not feel guilty about my decision…

To have and not to hold
So hot, yet so cold
My heart is in your hand
And yet you never stand
Close enough for me to have my way

To love but not to keep
To laugh, not to weep
Your eyes, they go right through
And yet you never do
Anything to make me want to stay

Like a moth to a flame
Only I am to blame

–Madonna “To Have & Not to Hold” Ray of Light